Why do you say contradictory things?
Query: "A lot of what you have said sounds contradictory -- Sometimes you say to let go. Sometimes you say to accept or love myself. Should I be letting go or loving myself? It seems abusive to love something if I'm letting go. And if I love something why do I need to let it go? I've noticed other contradictory comments you've made. Can you explain this and tell me what you actually believe in?"
Words are limiting. What one word means to one person is not what it means to another. What I mean when I say something might not be what you understand it to be. Most of what I say I don't actually believe. The words are not for believing in. If there's anything I advocate for -- it is that you not take on any beliefs! Do not believe in anything that I say. Do not believe in anything that anyone else says. Do not even believe in what you are telling yourself. Instead, allow my words to break open your hard set beliefs. Let it unlock the energy that is holding you in place.
My words are intended to bring in new perspectives and will change depending on the person, the moment, the question, and the intention. There is no right and there is no wrong, but if you are believing in right and wrong, I might say something that brings up your belief, and help you unmake this paradigm. It might sound like a belief in something right or a belief in something wrong, but it is not for you to hold more deeply to your belief. It is to undo.
Rarely if ever are my words intended as an expression of personal belief. The nature of this path involves complete transformation and shedding of the ego and one's "point of view". Therefore although I speak the words, they are intended to help you shift out of whatever construct you are holding onto. It is key to notice anywhere that you are identifying with the words I speak, and notice anywhere I might still be identifying as well. These words are not the source of you, nor are they the source of me, it is not important what I believe. And would be symbolic of steps I still need to take to be in complete oneness.
Whatever a teacher, guide, healer, or guru says to you, allow yourself to receive and open, but do not take on. Teachers, guides, healers and gurus are people too, they are on their own journey, and whatever level of consciousness they have reached (there is no REAL hierarchy) they have wisdom to impart to you, and they also have an ego that has desires and motivations.
It is important that you remember your goals and intentions in receiving wisdom and guidance from others. If you are feeling conflicted about a teacher's contradicting words, notice where this conflict comes from. Are you experiencing an ego-based desire to attach to new information? Sometimes when we begin to open and release old parts of ourselves, there is a part of us that wants to replace that space with more content and density. What if you don't have to do that anymore? If there is a part of you that does not trust yourself and is looking for wisdom outside of yourself, notice where you are wanting to make someone else the source of this trust and wisdom. Can you receive their teachings without putting anyone else on a pedestal? After all true wisdom does not come from the "human" that is speaking this information. It is not their information, it is not my information, it is coming from the infinite beyond.
Remember to follow your heart. Open yourself to the GOD that is within you. Do not take anyone else's words as truth. Don't take any of this on. Don't internalize it. Let of of all of your beliefs. Don't hear any of my teachings as truth. My words do not reflect my beliefs, they are only intended to help you shift out of your own blocks. They are for you until you don’t need them anymore.
-MXS
Madeline Sol is dedicated to evolving emotional intelligence and deeper self-awareness on a bodily and mental level.
